But while I was busy being my own god, I was secretly searching for the God I once knew when I was an child. The one I used to daydream about in my classroom. In Job 12:22, he talks about how God reveals the deep things of darkness, and brings darkness into the light. It was through my darkest moments I started seeing this flicker of light. He was revealing Himself to me.
I’m not proud of many decisions I’ve made in my life… except one. 8 years ago, I stood at a crossroad. I was faced with the choice to accept my girlfriends marriage proposal or walk away. I felt trapped. Walking away meant giving up everything that I’ve known and everything I stood for. I was torn. I called out to God for help. Little did I know, that uneasiness was God’s voice drawing me back to Him. That day I decided to walk away from the life I was living and trust in something bigger than myself.
8 years ago, at the biggest crossroad of my life, I stood in the face of Jesus with my heavy, over-packed bags of luggage. Jesus looked me in the eye and said…”choose me, Keri.” Instantly, I felt this unexplainable love and dropped my baggage. I chose Him. The most intimate moment I have ever and will ever experience.
This is the love I have always longed for. Jesus picked me up, cleaned me off, renewed my mind and re-wired my desires. He has put a new song in my mouth. His love is better than life. That is why my lips will forever praise Him…and only Him.